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Why do I bother?

I had a friendship. It was a very good friendship, it lasted for several years through thick and thin. And I thought, I thought that we had the communication lines open so that we can talk about things openly and honestly.

Tonight, that communication line broke completely. Over a misunderstanding, a disagreement of perspective that I thought had been settled when I last saw them, but instead ended up getting a broadside in email this evening. And frankly I thought I had settled things but instead I get mauled.

So I mauled back. Deservedly. If they had been honest, if they had been open, if they had been forthcoming as it had been before, my reaction wouldn't have been so reactive. But they weren't, so I essentially removed them from my life. I took care of the one thing that they said needed to be taken care of, and that's it.

The bad thing is that I still do care about them as people and as someone who I cared about. But after this, I don't need the friendship if this is the way I get treated. No consideration for my feelings, no willingness to talk to me about it, nothing but a rather bitter taste in my mouth.

I'm sorry I'm being bitter tonight, but when you lose a friend of as many years as I have you'd be bitter too. Especially when it was something so minor and something that could have taken 5 minutes to clear up. But since they wouldn't talk...

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nekomavin
Jun. 21st, 2004 10:52 pm (UTC)
<hug>
aeb
Jun. 22nd, 2004 03:20 am (UTC)
{SQUEEZE, sympathetic look, SQUEEZE}

Anne Elizabeth Baldwin
mshollie
Jun. 22nd, 2004 11:14 am (UTC)
(((((Tal)))))

hugs back atcha!

Viva Las Vegas!!!
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